beautiful thing

2007-01-13T18:27:00.000+08:00

okay, ive decided to move to xanga (:
so go check it out.

chill.

2007-01-11T21:48:00.000+08:00

oh here's the address, sorry

CLICK

2007-01-11T21:43:00.000+08:00

i created a xanga site (: i like xanga.
im not certain that i'll be moving yet, so do check back for updates on my exact location. till i make a decision, i'll be blogging both sides. :D

CHILL, DUDES

2007-01-07T11:18:00.000+08:00

i feel like moving again, you know? 2007 new year new blog? haha. :D should i? cause im getting quite bored with iridescentbeads. maybe i should move to diaryland again?

2007-01-06T15:02:00.000+08:00

Oh my gosh i just realised that that yul, that korean guy on survior, HIS SURNAME IS KWON!!!! :DDDDDD OH MY OH MY. :D im so excited i dont know why. hee heeeee. goodness, but im in love with him also lah. He's damn cool. i liked him from the start, :D and im happy that his surname is kwon.
see? 2 kwon loves. :D Are all kwons in korean hot? apparently so. mhm mhm! :DDDD

Orientation
The past 3 days have been spent at mj, and i must say i've grown to love the school more now, than before. its a nice place and i like the feeling the school exudes. maybe its just the fun part, the studying part is yet to come. Some say it'll be boring after this, we'll just have to see how it turns out. But i really enjoyed the orientation alot. And im super happy that i have jan and kat in the same og as me, its all been fab hanging out with the 2 of them, at least im not alone. Steph and naq are also in mj, ;D But in different ogs.

Atlas, BEST! :D
wahahaha, although we're not always on top, i must say i love my house! :D Its the ogls i guess, they're nice people and i think the house has house spirit and never gives up? haha, its okay that we dont dominate i guess, the enthusiasm is contagious. :D

And i like the mj cheer. :D its nice. the swa! part is my favourite. atlas cheers are nice too ;p but the other houses have nicer cheers, i like our 1234 cheer and the barney one. BUT i like miranda's fly kite one more. :D and callisto's move it. :D OH, and triton's fear. its cool!
Why am i rambling on and on about cheers?

On the first day we had the csi thing, which was quite boring, except that i wanted to know who killed the damn guy. the clues were fun to investigate into but i hated walking round and round the school, up and down stairs. i couldnt feel my feet after that. And we had to reapeat cheers 234320728 times.

Then second day we went for the meridian's magnificent marathon! :D it was utterly tiring like crap. we walked from tampines to simei to tampines again. do you know how freaking long it takes to walk from tampines to simei? you dont. you have no idea. What little feeling i had regained in my feet were gone. haha. but it was fun, i guess. :D
Again, reapeated cheers 32094237 times. Atlas got third! :D

Last day we had wet and wild. got wet, played games! Atlas got third again. then we went to bathe in jan's house. We took damn long to get there cause there was no cab! omg the most irritating thing is to need a cab when there's none in sight, either that or they all were taken. crap. finally got a cab then we crashed into tp to get jan's yellow tee from dee. i didnt see char though. and the tp guards were super relaxed. when they asked us if we were students of the school we just said ya ya. then another guard asked us if we were having a camp there, and we said ya ya. haha. how stupid. The tp orientation looked so messy! the people were all covered in mud or something. haha. oh my! :D at least ours was only water. but still, i think it would have been fun to play with mud, eh? :D
Then got another cab to jan's house. bathed, and ate maggie mee. :D

Returned to school to prepare for the campfire. we didnt practice it together once but when we went on stage we put on a rather good show i guess. :D although we got last for the performance in the end, it doesnt matter eh? :D
Turns out atlas got 4th overall for the whole orientation. OH WELLS.
Did more cheers, danced, then went for supper with atlas2! (:
Then daddy picked me up and i came home and slept myself to sleep.

The mass dances they taught us were damn nice. i love tokyo drift, it looks damn cool if you know how to dance. but we all couldnt, so. haha. its difficult though, really difficult. and impossible to learn within 3 days. Let's get it started was nice and i can remember the steps! :D hehhheh. then the couple dance accidentally in love. its also nice. but it would have been more fun if my partner (some random guy) and i knew the steps. -.-

I hope the days in mj will be good. (:

2007-01-06T14:48:00.000+08:00

I found survivor on youtube! So i can watch the entire season there. thing is, before i watched the ending some stupid idiots went to post comments on the earlier videos saying "I cant believe __ won, i wanted __ " Like HELLO! i was happy and all, but i wanted to find out MYSELF! ugh. anyway you guys have got to watch this. Its HILARIOUS.

2007-01-02T20:11:00.000+08:00

oh oh! i forgot to tell you guys.
This is my japan photoalbum. Go see if interested. CLICK ME!!!

:D enjoy

2007-01-02T19:40:00.000+08:00

SO, 2007. Is it gonna be eventful, fun, better? we'll just have to see, wont we? :D

2006-12-31T18:04:00.000+08:00

im feeling rather excited about the first day of school. (: i think its gonna be such an experience. :D

2006-12-31T15:13:00.000+08:00

(: the internet has been down these few days so i havent been blogging. sucker internet. and the other reason is that everytime i come onto the comp i feel this HUGE GINORMIC urge to play sims. so i do. (: I think the best part about the game is the romance! :) woah i love to make them kiss and kiss and kiss and woohoO! (: i think im sick. but whats the fun when you dont let your sims have fun huh!

I was just fooling around that day, and i made my girl hug this other girl romantically, just to see what'll happen. haha, and to my surprise, they fell in love. LOVE! haha. the heart thing came out. so i thought, why no have some more fun, and i couldnt control myself and i advanced into kissing and stuff. haha. so poof. lesbians.

you think im sick right? hhaha, maybe i am. i always thought im abit of a weirdo. so sue me.
(: im in a funny mood.

back to woohoooing. :D

2006-12-26T21:40:00.000+08:00

I realised the world is full of hypocrites.

Most Blogskinners in singapore have attitude problem, face it. goodness, care to hear me explain?
It is most uncommon to find a skin without the skinner placing a "warning" in their skin info section.

Dont rate me down because you dont like the skin. If you give me 4.5 or less give constructive critisims. Dont say "eeee, i dont like" (4.5 stars)

i mean, yeah, i thought it was reasonable enough, it wasnt until yesterday while i was browsing through skins at random and saw many many MANY comments saying "I LOVE IT" (5 stars), and i dont see people making sucha big fuss, or complain the teenist about it.
So its okay to love the skin and purely because you love the skin, to award it 5 stars? But it isnt okay for a person to award the skin 0.5 less than the perfect raing of 5 because he/she doesn't like it? It makes no sense, to me.

Of course, who the hell would complain when someone says he/she loves your skin and awards it 5 stars? However, if the person finds it easy to accept it than isnt it only fitting that he/she accepts other people rating them down because they dont like their skin?

Does anyone get my point here? Who doesnt like a perfect rating of 5.00 stars huh? But to demand it from the people? To get upset at people just cause they didnt rate you 5 stars? I saw this comment on a skin that had perfect 5 stars until someone made a comment that they didnt like the skin and awarded the person 4.5 stars. Everyone came down hard on that commentor, and someone even said,

"Go kill that person who gave you 4.5, this skin rocks i love it and it deserves 5 stars" (5 stars)

Dont you all agree that it is a little (at the least) hypocritical? So its okay for the person to love it and award 5 stars but not okay for another to hate it and award it 4.5? HUH? The skin deserves 5 stars cause the commentor loves it? Is the quality of all the skins in blogskins nowadays based on what the public loves? So if you see a high quality skin but you dont like it? Does that mean the skin deserves 4.5 or less just cause you dont like it? No wait. Rating low cause you dont like the skin is not tolerated is it?

Gee, now im confused. Well, i just dont get it. If people come down hard on those who rate low because they dont like the skin, shouldnt they also come down hard on those who rate high just cause they love the skin? Isn't it a parallel or something?

The world is just like that. People who do you good can do no wrong. People who do you wrong, well, screw them.
IS THAT IT?

Gosh. Sorry just had to make my thoughts known.

2006-12-25T21:26:00.000+08:00

(: merry christmas!

oh oh oh! i just had a tantalising conversation with audrey, no need to go into the details here man! :D
and i found out that kat is in mj too! and she's taking lit hist econs math! :D:D:D:D:D:D JOY TO THE WORLDDDD!
yay im so uper happy! haha. :D
i wonder who else is gg there too? i hope its more more people so i wont be lonely. ):
heehee, im happy.

2006-12-24T17:43:00.000+08:00

finally decided to post a few jap pics. (: these are of the section or batch, excluding the first one, i posted that cause i love that snowman!!! (:
yeahh. i was bored so i looked through the photos again. ahh, i really miss japan so so much. its not just the place its spending so much time with my batch and section! i wish i had a remote so i could rewind and replay those 8 days again and again. It really was SUCH an experience and i will never forget it. especially the times spent with the whole section, those times that still bring a smile upon my face when i think about it. i remember smiling after i counted the number of people in each section photo we took and feeling so glad when i counted 18! :D i love those photos man!

all im saying is, I'm gonna miss tkgssb/clarinet so so so so freaking much. ):

2006-12-21T22:55:00.000+08:00

oh yah, i forgot to say, i got into mj. really quite surprising actually. hur. i guess its a blessing. (:

2006-12-21T22:43:00.000+08:00

okay, im not in the skinning mood these days so kwon2 will have to wait. meanwhile, i found this really pretty black and white skin on blogskins (: credits to your.juliet, what a nice username, dont you all think? (:

i likey this tempy. pretty pretty whitey blacky.

"hey you dumb dumb. you give me gum gum! " AHH, classic.

2006-12-21T21:55:00.000+08:00

today was fun, we should do it again, sometime. (:
went out with anne candice and vanessa dm. haha. watched Night at the museum. goodness me. it looks like a scary show doesnt it? i thought so too! and i was like, quite freaked out when we decided to watch. but then i knew that it was ben stiller so it must be abit funny la. haha so i wasnt "red shoes" or "cello" freaked out.
but goodness the show was HILARIOUS. it wasnt even scary at the least.omg i laughed and laughed and laughed. you all should go catch it its damn good. yeah. :D

after the movie we walked around aimlessly for abit then decided to sit at lido mos and talk. (: haha. then we started talking about primary school stuff and all. haha, i had fun. (: laughed alot today.

~~early this morning~~ ahh, f it, i dont want to talk about this morning. i mean like whatever. and i truly saw the miraculous-ness of God. i fell asleep again praying, my hands were still clenched when i opened them 2 hours later. and when i looked up i saw that what i'd been praying for came true. i felt so touched and knew that it was all God's work! (:
i dont even know how to describe what i feel about this suckfest, so i wont.
sod it, okay? SOD IT.

-my God is great!

2006-12-18T21:49:00.000+08:00

i feel like making a new kwon template. mhm.

2006-12-17T19:40:00.000+08:00

helloooooooooooh. tj concert last night. i thought it was good, on the whole, but i wasnt that blown away like all the other tj concerts i attended before. haha. bought audrey a rose and a bear, which was wearing this suit that looked like a sick suit. haha. it felt so weird to watch audrey at a concert without us!

there was this guy sitting next to xuan who looked like a WA (working adult), it was damn hilarious cause he kept clapping and acting retarded and he looked so toot and.. just toot. haha. yeah i was laughing throughout the whole of CHRISTMASSIMO because of him. and the guy next to me kept hitting the rhythm of the song on his chair and i could feel it. felt like slapping his face. weirdos.

anyway, im missing everything about Japan! ): i really really love that place. The time there was great and i really really enjoyed it. i miss having my batchies a room to room call or doorknock away. i miss breakfast in the hotel lobby, i miss tkgssb, since now im officially outta it ): Golly. I really want to post pictures, but its gonna be damn tiring cause i gotta resize them all and stuff. but ah, i know i'll do it some day. in fact i feel like doing it now, dammit. haha. sheesh, yeah. after my bath im gonna get down to it! :D

Suddenly i feel not so satisfied with my shopping. ): haha. dont know why i feel like i didnt buy much. dammit i should have bought more right! leave 5000 yen for what! ):

Yesterday's Mj audition went okay only. The interview was disastrous actually, the mr. wong kept repeating "There's gonna be a problem" haha. and he said to me "My advice to you is, dont take chem." haha, yes i know but its not my fault that mj doesnt have bio without chem right!!!! UGH! so i guess if i get in i wont be able to take bio. what a joy isnt it? No bio and history instead? I mean, i like history and all but i can never score in it!

i love my new clip!

2006-12-15T22:42:00.000+08:00

I. AM. BACK. (((: So, im gonna type this ultra long post (without pics this time) about the entire japan trip. (: you have been warned.

01. Nagoya
Airport, check in, waited for like, 234204 hours, boarded the plane. i sat next to char and xuan (: I knew from the start that i would have to sleep but i wouldnt sleep well. so, no surprises that i felt extremely tired but couldnt find a good position to sleep in that teeny chair. char said i kept tossing and turning. haha oops.
Reached Nagoya and headed to some palace i think. we didnt do much seeing, just walked around thw place aimlessly taking random photos. we were standing at the entrance for like, 15 minutes taking photos before realising everyone had gone to explore the place alr. haha. omg the crows there are humongous. and their cries are frightening. And, they dont seem to be afraid of humans. pretty scary when the swoop down from the sky and just almost miss your head.
After the palace thingy headed to Nagashima Super Land :D we only took like, 3 rides i think? haha. the stupid tickets were dammit expensive lah. but they were damn nice. the 3 we took that is. there was the blue colour coaster which was refreshing and nice, just enough to get my adrenaline going (: then we went for the viking which was the best viking i've ever taken. it wasnt scary much, just very high and when the ride swooshed down, woahhh, the cold air cutting across our faces and the all so familiar feeling of needing to pee, was fantastic. (: i loved it. The best ride of all was the WHITE CYCLONE. it was (i am not abashed to say) the biggest roller coaster i've dared to brave. It was just simply fabbbbb. i realised that i am a coward who closes my eyes whenever there is a drop in the roller coaster. i guess its due to the fact that if i open my eyes, my heart will pop out when i see the drop. haha. yes well. (:
had a good lunch after that. burger and a shake. green tea shake. it was ultra good. (((: I've become addicted to green tea everything since japan. green tea shake, green tea ice cream, green tea, blah blah. :D I love the sweet sweet fragrance it gives out. hur.
After superland proceeded to the hot spring place. woah socking our feet in the hot spring was burning at first, but later it got really really (there's no other word for it) shuang. (: my feet felt so soft after that!
Then we went to the hotel! The Ai plaza tsushima (: clarinets were squashed into one room, 18 people sleeping in a vast room (: I liked it, while we stayed there everything was so comfortable and i loved that feeling of the family-ness within our section, i really enjoyed the stay there, haha. we went to bathe at approx 10 smth? and the stupid common bath was not appealing at all. haha. we were patiently waiting for our turn. waited 34327042378402minutes and when it was nearing 11 miss sia and the teachers came to tell us that the hot water supply would be turned off at 11. I COULD HAVE DIED! started banging on the toilet door and begging sihui and wanyuan to come out. when they did, we rushed in and it was utter chaos. I SHALL NOT MENTION ANY GRUESOME EMBARRASING DETAILS HERE. the memory of the bath on the first night will never ever leave me. im scarred for life. so anyway, took a hurried bath coupled with unneccesary screams coming from xuan, rushed out and our wonderful batchies told us they extended the hot water to 1130. thanks ah! haha. wthhh. ahh mannn! Then audrey the individualist bathed alone. haha. UNFAIR!

02. Joint concert
I really enjoyed this concert! nothing much happened, actually. errr, the meiden band was fabulous, didnt come as a surprise though. We had 2 combined pieces with mj, then a few meiden players joint in and sight read hands across the sea, and then played it for the concert! they are impressive! Yes, playing under the baton of Mr Yito was truly an experience. His passion for the music just exudes from his body. playing while he conducts really affects the whole playing experience. I never felt so good playing a song at a concert. Its infective, his passion. :D really really nice.

03. Exchange
Mr. Yito took us for combine. He gave us many many tips for toccata which im sure the juniors will put to good use for syf next year eh? (: I dont know how to put this into words, but Mr. Yito is jsut fabulous. never will i get to play under such (i dont even know the word for it) FABULOUS (lets just say) conducting. I feel so lucky to have been given this chance. During lunch we got to meet the meiden section! the eflat girl, chihiro, didnt join in combine but i got to talk to her during lunch. she's really cute and nice! (: I hated the lunch, though. omg, the disgusting RBs !!! yuck. haha. took photos, then combine continued. at the end of combine we played saturday night together with the band. then we said goodbye. ): i got chihiro's email though. And that risa's. they are all so cute i tell you! haha. And alexa and her guy. haha. it was a really nice day. oh oh, Mr. Yito bought gloves for all of us cause we weren't wearing em! SO NICE RIGHT! He's such a charming man!
Dinner was at this restaurant walking distance from the hotel. the walk was excruciatingly cold cause of the harsh wind. haha. but dinner was good. kinda like seoul garden actually. BBQ and stuff. except there was also a buffet. the cakes were good! I tried like 3! and they had a candy floss machine! aha. apparently some people thought you had to pour the sugar into the big big part of the machine and not the hole. never see people making candy floss before ah! haha. according to xuan i was acting pro. haha. wth. the way she said i was making the thing was damn hilarious. haha. i still laugh when i think of it.
I think this was the night we played BLuff haha. (: charmaine is damn funny. One look at her and she will admit that she bluffed. hahaaa! omg, charmaine you are so so so freaking funny.

04. Tokyo
Boarded bullet train to tokyo, continued BLuffing on board. haha. Lunch on the train made me feel like puking, i dont know why, japn food does nto agree with me. When we reached tokyo we went shopping! We went to this temple, didnt linger there long. then proceeded to the shopping street where i bought my kwonsangwoo calender with audrey's 700 yen! ahhhhh i can melllttttttttttttttt all the photos are damn nice and im so in love with him. i didnt expect to find any of his stuff there, i mean its japan. haha. but i did. and it was the perfect medicine because i was missing him so badly! haha. I also bought a ugly wallet (i cant find it, i think i lost it) and this strawberry soft soft thingy with chocolate inside. i cant wait to try it. it looked delicious. ohh. Then we found a store selling green tea ice cream and it was so nice! (: audrey spent 7000 Yen in this street, is it? haha. she spent her money like water! hha. yes audrey i know you need to buy presents for your SECTION in tj okay? as you have told us 171232104710 times. ;p
Was this the night we went to eat steak? hmm i cant remember. i think so lehh. haha. anyway, the steak was delicious! ahah.
checked into Sunshine city prince hotel, yay, beds! yay, private toilet! yay, yay, yay! went to sihui and wanyuan's room to play some more BLuff. then went downstairs to explore the hotel abit. saw a hello kitty watch i wanted. :D i bought it yesterday. haha. (:

05. Disneyland!
HEHHHEH, need i say more? the place was magnificent, i just loved it. Tried taking photos with the characters but they all seemed more interested to run away. haha. i guess they needed to prepare for a parade or something. haha. i only took a photo with chip and a snowman! haha. didnt get to take with daisy in disney land. ): she ran away too quickly. haha. Took a few rides here and there. was freezing cold and hungry so batchies compromised with me and had an early lunch. a few pieces of chicken which cost 10.50! ughhh. haha. then after that went to take more rides and shopping! Big thunder mountain! that was everyone's favourite ride. :D We also took many other kiddy rides, like the "its a small world" boat ride. it was so pretty! i shall post the video i took. so happy and cute! haha. went into the haunted house, i was quite scared before going in but it was for nothing. their haunted house is like not scary. haha. it was like riding through a cartoon! ;D enjoyable! We also went into the buzz lightyear thing. and i got a score of 59600! woah, pretty impressive huh! hahah. (:
Shopping was good too! i bought minnie ears, they're so cute i love them! haha. but i'll never be able to wear them again though. cause people will laugh. hah. never mind in singapore or the next time i go to disneyland maybe. haha. (: bought souvenirs, anne's present. :D
Back to hotel. Went to the supermarket. (forgive me if im wrong) bough noodles and water. then gathered in our room and ate. :D crapped abit, laughed at charmaine, then went to bed. :D haah.

06. Katakura
Exchange with kata was very very weird. it passed by like THAT! haha. one minute we were playing for the school, next was sectionals then combine then it was time to go home. combine and sectionals took less than half an hour. weird. kata people were not as nice as meiden but i still managed to get the e flat girl's email and get some photos taken. then shopping at the hotel.
Bought a minnie mouse notebook (what else? ) and a nice clip. i learnt how to make my hair nice nice with that kind of clip! im gonna buy more! (: then bedd.

07. Disneysea!
This was as nice as disneyland, if not nicer. (: it was like a world of its own, all so picturesque. :D Took more rides here. Went for the big band beat! it was magnificent! the band was damn power and nice! :D oh, im in love wiht minnie mouse! haha, she's so cute lahh and pretty! the prettiest mouse in the world! hahahahaa. so most of the things i bought are minnie things, dont blame me. haha. :D The shopping here wasnt as nice as disneyland's. but there was this one ride, the " Journey to the center of the earth " which surpassed all the disneyland rides, mainly due to the monster drop. i could feel my heart in my mouth. it was damn nice! :D WOAHHHHH! The ride took us throught this cave thingy, the sound effects were a little too much for cowardly me, and i was frightened. haha. the queues were monster long and we had to queue close to one hour for all the rides! goodness. that's how time passed so quickly! haha. Had dinner at this restaurant. pizza! :D the restaurant was called Sebastian's ____ something. aahha. quite nice the food there. :D
got seperated from xuan sudrey and wy along the way. haha. omg i found myself incapable of shopping without xuan cause i normally ask her advice and stuff before buying things. haha. looked high and low for them and finally found them in the shop near the entrance! YAY! :D haha. finally could shop happily again, after half and hour! haha. bought 2 wine glasses for my parents. i think they're so pretty. the pictures on them are in gold and the bottom of the glasses are coloured, one blue one pink, one mickey one minnie! (: HOW SWEET! haha. bought myself a pen! minnie, of course. (: and a minnie handphone charm which is so pretty! (((:
Went to audrey's room at night. laughed at charmaine's mee tai mug! ahahhaaa. omg that girl is retarded. :D
slept.

08. Singapore
Woke up at 530 am, dragged myself down to the lobby. breakfast, airport, plane. This time's plane ride had 80 movies! :D i wanted to watch almost love but fell asleep. the i didnt have the mood to continue watching. i guess i'll just buy the dvd lahh. sorry kwon. haaaa. anyway, lunch then i watched friends and project runway. :D after that, scoop! nice show, but i fell asleep like 5 times throughout the show. finally the show ended and i slept all the way back to s'pore.

And now im back and im about to fall asleep at my computer table. mj audition tmr! ): nighttt all.
ALIGATO GOZAIMAS DA! (pardon the wrong spelling) for reading my post. :D
-bows- "sarang hei yo all!"

2006-12-06T19:24:00.000+08:00

you know what? i dont even know what i want myself. Its so hard to tell okay? like like. i dont even understand what my heart wants its just that everytime i think of it i get over-ly jealous and i dont know why cause some part of me tells me that i dont want it in the first place. I thought i didnt want it. but im the kind of person that if i give up on something i feel fine. but when i see someone else take that thing i've given up i feel jealousy and anger. im so weird i know i know. AYE so confusing!

I cant belive we're flying tomorrow! :D:D:D i cant wait but im so afraid that i wont be able to handle all the luggage cause i've got 2 cases and one big luggage and a deuter backpack. i have no idea how the HELL im gonna carry it all. sigh. WHY couldnt the stupid pirates and rosa composer compose a eflat part HUH! omg now its like eurgh.
:D i cant wait to arrive in japan. i cant i cant! haha. i hope it will be worth the coming back for practices. hurrr.

-im feeling irritable! can y0u tell? haha. anyway today me and audrey were doing hard labour checking the instruments lah and the stupid french horn smelt like rotten soy sauce and it was ultra gross and disgusting and it was rotting and rusty. yuck yuck yuck. and there were like spiders in the clarinet store cupboard okay? dead spiders hanging on a spider web. like yuck. super gross.

im gonna sleep the whole day tmr i think. SO SAD they arent showing my tutor friend on the plane anymore ): i really wanted to watch you know. hmm. should i bring my portable dvd player? haha. i feel like. if im bringing i wanna ask xuan to bring her disc then can watch. i still need my dosage of kwonsangwoo you know? haha.

Sunrise and safari is sucha stupid song lah! haha. Detach mouthpiece from rest of instrument. Blow into mouthpiece in free time. omg the blowing into mouthpiece is like shit we sound like crazy roosters being slaughtered. haha. Make hissing sound SSSS while rolling tongue in rrrr. HAHA. what are we? snakes? probably. haha. spastic lah! the whole last page is full of all these retarted shits we dont even have to play anything! haha. retarded i tell you!

im gonna bathe, BUH BUH BUH BUH BUH BUH BUHHHHHHHBBBBYEBYE!

2006-12-04T22:58:00.000+08:00

hehheh. about time i made a Kwonsangwoo template for myself EH! haha. i like i like but the pic is abit weird just that he looks damn nice there! haha. (:

:D i finished watching sad love story last night and i cried like mad. i cried throughout 3/4 of the show. its that sad. yeah. so if you dont like crying dont watch eh? Audrey says im an emotional person but i hide it. HAHA. no la. im a happy girl. its normal to cry over korean dramas right? haha.

went to bugis after band to eat and buy the cube noodles audrey was talking about. and then we went to look for travel adaptors. I was damn tired. i still am now, and my bed is waiting for me, nice and comfy. but i want to blog first. haha. yah. anyway i saw this vcd with his face on it so i grabbed it and read the behind part. it was on sale only 6.95 so cheap! but then i didnt want to buy not really in the mood. i want a serial instead! then can see his face for 20+ episodes! hah. the vcd title is love, so divine. im getting it soon! and then i saw another one. Almost love. i heard its a nice show but i didnt know he acted inside. im gonna buy also. :D but i was feeling broke today cause i splurged unneccesarily on crayfish pasta which cost 12.20! haha. im mad. but whatever, poh kim was having 50 percent sale la thats why. so cheap lah everything there!

im gonna hunt down all the serials he acted in and im gonna get all of em! hahaha. :D:D:D I love kwonsangwoo! are you sick of me saying that? well, too bad. haha, cause i really do love kwonsangwoo. okay i shall shut up. but none of you understand how much i love him okay? ahah. i really really love him. its like, no matter how much i talk about him its still indescribable la. haha i sound crazy, a psycho fan or something. but whatever i love him and thats final.

im annoying even myself! haha. My eyes are closing mm by mm now. i need sleep. :D night and God bless all. May your dreams be infiltrated by the beautiful kwonsangwoo too, i hope i dream of him again, haha, what bliss. (:

-i like the face shop, dont you?

2006-12-03T16:26:00.000+08:00

:D ah, suckit. only less than a month to go before 2007 comes, and we all know what that means, dont we? (:
so im not gonna bother so much anymore. it doesnt BM (bloody matter). hahaha

sad love story is the saddest show i've ever watched. every part of it is just tragic. its pure tragic, serious. i've never watched a show where one character can strike me as truly pathetic and poor thing you know. gosh. my poor junying. haha. ): but i think kwonsangwoo's hair in that show looks nice. the long hair. okay not long but longer than normal. haha. ah, sod it his hair looks nice everywhere, in every style, okay?

ahh, yes. i've started my tcg thing again. i just joined fate - a lost tcg. i like the cards. so this morning i spent like, hours making a template for myself. check it out. CLICK
Dont you think the name midnight-drizzle sounds nice? i would have used it as my blog address if i'd thought of it sooner. but now its iridescentbeads which sounds pretty enough so im not complaining.

eh people go join fate. those who watch lost that is, then i can trade with you! go go! its fun. say CLARISSA referred you okay! haha.

there's band tomorrow. which totally sucks cause there's class chalet on monday and i cant go because of that! how nice, dont you say? lucky bbq's on tuesday. woahh. next week is gonna be BAND BAND BAND BAND BAND. the only band free day is gonna be tuesday, which is class chalet. then wed band again and then its off to japan we go. i really have no time on my hands now, haha. i cant wait for thursday, positively.

someone remind me to look for my noah's ark score tomorrow. im scared. haha

2006-11-30T19:50:00.000+08:00

How, how can you not know?
or rather, how can you pretend not to know? HUH!!!

2006-11-29T18:55:00.000+08:00

okay sho-pan was a big fat flop. read audrey's blog for more details. haha. (: well, it was partly due to the fact that audrey's insane bitch kept barking in my face and which audrey says is a "form of greeting". but no, it sounded as if she wanted to bite my head off. so, you cant blame me for screaming everytime she barked.
WOOF AHH! WOOF AHH!

haha, you can imagine. but. she got quite cute after awhile and stopped barking, though audrey says its because she was terrified of me. haha. according to her, while i was patting her she didnt dare move even though she was falling off the chair. ): haha. eh! not my fault, really. im a nice girl, just dont bark in my face. haha.

i think her doggie spray smells like johnson baby powder, so nice. oh and another thing, miss bitch has bad breath. VERY BAD BREATH! hahaaa.

:D oh, on tuesday i bought sad love story bit the stupid discs some are spoilt and it pisses the shit outta me cause little boxes keep appearing. im gonna COMPLAIN! UGH! sucks man. really sucks. but some discs only. im so pissed i feel like yelling at the video shop person.

haha. kwonsangwoo is KWONSANGWOO. :D that says alot, doesnt it, since kwonsangwoo can mean :
1)hot
2)cute
3)love
4)FABULOUS
5)clarissa's love. (:

i really really love him, okay! gosh. i think its worse than my elliott craze. that one has died out a little. but my cj/ksw/JUNYING/JUNKUI love is really strong and i dont think i'll get over him. haah. i remember saying once that i never liked a superstar more than elliott, but now i think he's met his match. :D

maybe if i marry kwon sang woo and i have a baby i can name him
Elliott Kwon Sang Woo Junior! (:
hahaaa. so cute! or maybe
Elliott Kwon Cheng Jun :D

hahaa. oh my oh my. :DDDDD

2006-11-27T11:50:00.000+08:00

im boreddddddddddddd :(
meeting audrey khoo later to look for the SHO-PAN score and she's gonna teach me. how im gonna learn a piano concerto when i dont have any idea how to play the piano in the first place i dont know. but whatever. i'll try.

anyway my keyboard's retarded so now whatever im typing appears 2 seconds after i type it and its really irritating. ahh, so i shall not blog now. BYE

2006-11-26T14:54:00.000+08:00

and i deleted my private blog, too many unhappy memories, ):
ah well, its a new start. hey, Os are over. everything now is AO (after Os) everything before was BO (before Os)
in this AO period i will live happily, and throw away all the unhappy thoughts.
yesterday i felt really blessed, like all of a sudden i realised that all my problems are gone, vanished into thin air. i really thank God for that, He has made me sucha happy girl, i feel new. :D

2006-11-26T14:43:00.000+08:00

i changed back my background. this one is still the best, yes? :D it makes my blog look bright and happy.

2006-11-26T14:19:00.000+08:00

i wonder, should i start my tcgs again now that Os are over?
maybe i should start over. haha. like, sign up as a different name or something. i dont feel like going back cause my files are in my other computer and its so messy. yeahh. haha. man, i'll think about it. haha.
gotta send that get lost person an email asking her if i could start over, like as a new member with a new starter pack and all that. i'll do it tomorrow.

haha, i wish gobstones was still on though. whatever happened to kerri? she disappeared from the net or something. the whole page just disappeared. sigh. and impervius is also gone. man, it sucks to gather all the cards only to find the tcg has closed down. haha.

okay, enough rambling.
!!!!!

im glued to stairway. its bad. haha. i had a dream about kwon sang woo last night. (who else?) i dunno. i just ran into the face shop and he was there. but he was like this tall person. im not talking about tall in the 1.8 m sense. im talking tall in the tall as a giraffe sense. haha. so he sorta carried me up and i hugged him. hahaaaaaaa. and then he said i should go now. and i was like, can i see you again? you know the usual stuff. and i asked him for his email cause i thought he wouldnt give me his number. HAHA. and he did. and it was this long long email.

it was something like.
kwonsangwoo_(JFDHFSDFLSDsomething)@download.com
HAHAAAAA. and he told me (in english mind you) that all korean actors' emails are at download.com. !! which is quite impossible because download.com is a downloading site and doesnt host emails.
check it out.
download.com

haaaa. yeah. then i asked him if he was a christian or a catholic cause one site said he was a christian and one said he was a catholic. and i always wanted to find out. so i asked him and i cant remember what he said. haha.
funny?

omg, its so funny man. then i added him on msn and his nickname was something that started with "people....something" haha. and his personalised message looked like fishballs on grass. 47 of them. in my dream he told me that his personalised nick will always have 47 fishballs on grass. HAHA if not it wasnt him, it was an imposter. so when i counted the fishball things i was elated cause there were 47 of them.

like, what the hell right?
hahaha. i rmb i dreamt of elliott that time. i cant say which one is more exciting. haha

and this isnt the first time i dreamt of kwonsangwoo. the other night also. i dreamt that he came to my house and got drunk (cause i just watched the episode where he got drunk and started singing to jingshu, so cute) and xuan was there for some reason. and so he was like swaying all over the place and i told xuan im scared of him but he's so handsome! hahahaaaa.

its funny right? how someone 524097248932742039 miles from you can dream such vivid dreams of you even though you've never met when you're a international superstar? :D
yes, i have funny dreams.

oh and last night after my fantasy with ksw, i dreamt that i got 35 points for O levels. wow. i was petrified okay? petrified. hahhaa. man. i shant think about it. cause the last time i dreamt that i got 238for psle and went to tkgs i really did. GOSH. haha.

KWONSANGWOO!!!! :D:D:D:D:D

2006-11-23T23:53:00.000+08:00

prom was fun! (:
but i got a headache from the loudspeakers. im surprised none of the guests staying in M hotel complained. it was really LOUD and i think people 5 miles away heard us. haha :)

i loved it. took loads of photos. :D but my camera sucked. ): nvm i shall wait for people to send me photos from their cameras.

i won a $20 voucher for kino. (: not bad, eh. lucky draw. but it was super embarrasing to go up to take it. man! but never mind. haha
and sheena won the grand prize. it was so funny. lucky sheena, lucky. haahaa. :D

anywayyyy, dear shaofang was chosen as miss tkgs for our class. hhaaa. shaofang you are so cute! :D it was really funny.

a very entertaining night, i must say. i wont forget it. :DDD
and its off to bed.

2006-11-23T23:29:00.000+08:00

2006-11-21T19:23:00.000+08:00

I think im gonna start playing tcgs again. (: ayee.
anyway XUAN! i need to whine to you man. i totally know how you feel. haha. :D gosh. these few days seem to be filled with crazy people weaving in and out of my life. haha. -.-

well i got the toccata score. its in my bag now. im gonna hafta look through it later. not look through actually. im gonna hafta LEARN it. gee its gonna be a long day tmr.
oh man i hate rushing, i really do. ARGHHH. shit.

what else what else? Yes yuxuan dearest changed her template by herself (clapclap) (: aye, mine was nicer k! haha. but its quite nice i must say. so xuan, is the name of the html document in your (ICON FILLED DESKTOP) computer named " MY FAVOURITE TEMPLATE 2" or something? cause the other time you made a template yourself you named it my favourite template. (: hahaaaaaaaaaah.

i want to play sims2 but got no mood cause the stupid thing either has a "cant install on 2 computers" thing or its just that my computer doesnt want to read it. so i have to use al's computer everytime i want to play and that just pisses me off.
and if i want to buy the extensions i cant install it here because the stupid thing needs sims2 to work. that just sucks. see my troubles? headache headache.

oh did i tell you about my dress? haha. its ordinary lah. just a normal purple tube. i hope i look nice in it, is all. haha. (: i want tomorrow to be a GOOD day and im SURE it will be. this goes out to audrey the pessimist who's current nickname on msn is "tomorrow's gonna be a bad day".
yeah, way to make a person like me feel better, audd. ;X

aye, whatever.
Im blessed cause I have God dearest.
What's there to fear when He is near?
Nothing can make me doubt Him,
As long as He is with me everything will be fine.

YEAH! (:

2006-11-18T14:30:00.000+08:00

walao. im like freakking annoyed and my heart is beating so super fast and im feeling like crap.
the things band does to you, sighhh.

ugh, i cant believe this is happening. o levels ended yesterday i dont need this kind of stress now lahh. WTH!
if this is whats gonna happen from now on i'd rather i didnt beg my father.
and i'd rather Os never ended. at least study stress was less stressful than this
walao i really cant take this crapp.

i cant wait for prom. and even that makes me stressed. what the hell i hate this!

2006-11-18T12:58:00.000+08:00

Its time to have fun once again, again
We're free at last
We're gonna play play PLAY
Do you know what ( we feel )
Now that Os are gone?
Well guess what? (what what)
We're FREE MOTHER FREE!

WOAHHHHH ! (:(:(: FREEDOM AT LONG LAST!
(:(:

time for stairway and everything else.
(: KWONSANGWOO=LOVE
i kwonsangwoo this man!

2006-11-15T19:09:00.000+08:00

HELLO! (:
happy birthday xuan. (:

okay, happy mugging for chem and history people. i hate chem.
);

2006-11-14T19:37:00.000+08:00

YO MANNN! :D
todays amath went really well, but i screwed up. all because of my carelessness.
3 X 4 = 14 indeed.
I SUCK LAHH
and all beacuse of my carelessness i got minus 9 already!!!
sheesh.

and even though i prayed and prayed that i wouldnt be careless, i was again. GOSH! my carelessness is going to be my downfall one day. ):

im getting really worried for emath and stuff. like all my answers are wrong like that. but aye, i guess i'll just pray hard lah, things will be fine. (:

okayyyyyy. im scared for chem and history.
i havent started and im blogging.
yay me.

how many of you are surprised at my behaviour? HAHA

2006-11-13T11:25:00.000+08:00

ahh, i absolutely love my template. haha. (: IM SO IN LOVE WITH IT.
and al you stupid shit, i cant believe you stole my code, you html retard. haha. (:

today's lit paper was so so only leh. i think i screwed up my passage based. oh man, i always do that. it sucks. ha,im not going to worry about that though.
I CANT WAIT FOR FRIDAYYY!!!!

haha, oh man. im gonna buy sad love story, summerscent, princess hours, my tutor friend, desperate housewives and so many more. haha. im gonna be a couch potato. haha, i dont care. im going to stick my eyes to the tv and comp 24/7. haha. (((:

of course, there's still prom to look forward to, not to mention the BAND practices that are starting yet again. hahahaa. oh wells.
:D i cant wait for japan. i really cant.
I want to choose my own roomates, ughh. I HOPE WE CAN LAH, i want to sleep with xuan aud and char! (: and play chope as many times as we can. oh but char practiced alr right?? HAHA, oh my you are so cute.

hahah
(: CHOPE HAIIIII.

2006-11-11T13:44:00.000+08:00

(: OH AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHEENA

2006-11-11T13:41:00.000+08:00

you know that song in that last video? I CAN MEMORISE IT! hahaha
amazing isnt it?
I dont know what im singing though, and i dont even think im pronouncing the words correctly. haha, i cant help it! its in korean. (:

haha. oh my i really want to learn korean. like really really want. but i think it'll be very difficult. aye, i think i'll buy a korean language disc or something. haha. (: i really want to learn korean, im serious. haha.
oh well. tuition at 3, sigh.

2006-11-11T12:13:00.000+08:00

sorry ah, i keep posting videos here. (: but this is one of my favourite episodes. its sad. she just found out that hey eye got problem. its tragic. (: but Cj is so sweet, as usual. (: I LOVE IT WHEN HE SAYS "DONT COME!" then calls her back again. and says, "COME IMMEDIATELY!" hahaha. then he says "Im going to snooze, wake me up when you get here." ahhh, i can melt. haha. hes so funny

okay here goes. Dont like them, dont watch them. (haha audrey)

2006-11-11T11:52:00.000+08:00

heeey.
(: monday there's lit, then tuesday amath wed nothing thurs CHEM and amath and friday history and then ITS FREEDOM! :D:D:D:D
but right, im scared lehh. very very scared. i feel as if im doing these papers without feeling. and its hard to tell how i did and all that. im so scared that i messed up. in fact, im terrified. i just hope that i will do better than prelims. oh my goodness, its so frightening.

yeah. so im like, super scared that i screw up. but at the same time i cant wait for it to end. but im also scared that after it ends i didnt do my best and stuff. gosh. O levels suck, seriously.

):
HAHA. okayyy, off to watch more stairway then study somemore. im hopeless.
sorry, i just cant help myself.

blame it on CJ's charm. :D

2006-11-10T12:19:00.000+08:00

2006-11-09T18:43:00.000+08:00

btw, does anyone likey my new template?? HAHAi love the hearts, dont you? :D

2006-11-09T16:06:00.000+08:00

2006-11-09T15:53:00.000+08:00

i keep thinking Os are over! haha. i've been watching stairway to heaven on youtube cause i dont want my mummy to know. shes out. haha. and im supposed to be studying emath! but im not. haha. i'll study tonight.

wooooooow. i've said this a million times but im gonna say it again. kwonsangwoo is the man i want to marry. haha. ;D i've never seen someone so perfect. or maybe i want to marry him in that show. Cha song joo (che chengjun) :D He's so sweet and caring towards Jingshu, its so so so super sweet. and i love the way he teases her and makes her feel awkward cause its so funny. the way he pushes her to the floor and then helps her up again, its so sweet and nice. (:
woah this is a full blown crush on a character. whats wrong with me? but you'd fall in love with him too after you watch it. (: go check it out on youtube the entire season is there! haha

search for strawberryxmeimei. bless her ( i think its a her cause its MEIMEI? ) for uploading 100 + plus videos just for this series so everyone can watch. haha. its so sad and omg, i just love it lahh.

Love, is something that will return.
Yes, that's how you smile. I love it when he says that to jingshu cause its just so touching and sweet. :D

2006-11-07T16:42:00.000+08:00

HELLO THERE!
omg, i realized i havent been blogging here at all! haha. well its cause i've got so many priveat things to blog about in my private diary i've been neglecting this one. hee. oopsiedaisy.
anyway, we're in the midst of Os now, its hard to believe. i cant wait for it to be over, seriously. please please please. haha. (:

its weird cause suddenly the thing that i was looking so forward to seems to have become a slightly dreadful thing in my minds eye. but hey, it'll all be fine right?
oh mannn.
God help me.

anyway. i have english tomorrow and guess what? my bloody thing came today which means tomorrow is gonna be cramps day and that is so terrible. how am i supposed to write a freaking compo with cramps?? and wth, i think im gonna be in painnnn. stupid menses. early dont come come during Os. shitty.

its getting harder and harder to tolerate, i cant take the sight of it any longer. when i look at the two of you its like theres something burning inside of me, wanting to just scream for you to stop. but i cant do that. because that would be suicide. i hate this and i dont see an end to all the problems. it irks me, makes me boil with irritation. i love you both so much but yet you seem so different from who i need you to be. please find me a way to solve this mess.
it seems like its never gonna end, unless you change your mindset i dont think that anything can be done anymore. i love you. and you. i hope its not true, cause if it is, i'll never forgive you.

2006-10-28T14:54:00.000+08:00

hello. ive decided to start a private diary in diaryland. beats writing things down on paper. its so much easier to type isnt it! haha. so dl cause it can be SECURELY locked, not like those hackable blogger locks which are utterly useless if you ask me. haha. (: okay, if i decide to give you the password, please dont give it away or anything. its not called PRIVATE for nothing. bye. (i'll still be blogging here, btw) this is my PUBLIC diary, duh.

2006-10-27T19:43:00.000+08:00

HELLO! (: well ive got not much to say now, but just now there was this BIG FAT BEE hovering near my leg and i didnt realise. i just thought eh so itchy. then i didnt bother to see what is it. haha. then i suddenly looked down and i SCREAMED. haha

it was the hugest flying thing i've ever seen and yuck. so i went to the room to hide. haha. yeah. how interesting right!

2006-10-23T16:23:00.000+08:00

Hey folks! Let me give the sec four muggers reading this a hint, GO STUDY YOUR BUTTS OFF, don't be like me. Haha. (: How depressing. Anyway! :D im feeling quite contented and at peace with myself, even though there's this voice at the back of my head that keeps telling me that im a crazy ass and i should wake up my idea cause Os are staring at me in my face (not to mention waving at me, saying, "HELLO CLARISSA! WE'RE HERE! GET READY TO BE BLOOOOOOWWWNNN AWAY BY US!" (evil laugh) ) and i should really start studying. but i cant. no matter how hard i try to study i cant seem to bloody focus. i feel like SLAPPING myself.

which reminds me, last night i had this dream that i kept saying "I feel like SLAaaaaaping you", with the dragging of the "sla". then someone i cant rmb who, said "HAHAHAHAH CLARE! I LOVE IT WHEN YOU SAY THAT. ITS SO FUNNY!" who, in their right mind will find anything so un-funny that hilarious i dont know, but i was very amused at myself for dreaming that. haha. :D

gosh. gosh. GOSHH!!! somethings wrong with me. oh yes, and before i forget, turns out the school decided to give me one more mark for my emath/combinehumans (either one, i dont know which) and so i got 20 points. JOY TO THE WORLD. but really, im glad they did. at least now i can make it to a jc, the only question is which one will want me? haha. well, whatever. i'll think about it after the bigOs, if i get out of it alive, that is. (: which im sure i will, the worst outcome will be a emotionally and mentally drained me, tops. a death due to stress is unlikely in my case, due to the fact that my stress levels are like, as near zero as possible. but i guess i'll have to keep my big mouth shut. who knows what might happen eh? hahaha. i might drop dead of a heart attack tomorrow, or i might burn myself to death while cooking porridge for lunch tomorrow or i might drink detergent instead of water by accident and die from sodium whatever they put in detergents poisoning. see, life is unpredictable, and this statement is like, proven by Mr.Krishna (Last name unknown) of India, Malgudi. HAHA!

okay, needless to say, im currently staring at my lit book and telling myself that the life of Krishna is very worth looking at and i care alot about the ongoings of the little fantasy land called malgudi. but, the thing is, its so hard to believe that im having trouble trusting my own clarissaangel. you know, the one who wears the white frock and stands on my shoulder telling me that i should do righteous things? the clarissa angel. (: haha.
okay, i should like, totally stop this insanity and go back to analysing the PSYCHIC development of Mr. Krishna. and how his dead wife communicates with him through a fat man who is a farmer and loves nature by controlling his hand while he poises it above a paper pad while holding on to a pencil, telling him exactly what saree she is wearing. (a likely story, Mr RK narayan.)

2006-10-22T18:53:00.000+08:00

heehee, its funny that everytime i get smitten with some movie star or whatever, i seem to forget about whats real. haha. and suddenly what i found SUPER appealing before somehow doesnt seem THAT appealing anymore. haha. ((:
wooooooow. that smile is the nicest and sweetest smile that anyone can ever well, smile. haha. (: CJ! or, it should be cjg, for chengjunge. (:

2006-10-21T15:07:00.000+08:00

Feast your eyes. ((:

yeah man yeah man.

2006-10-21T14:59:00.000+08:00

dont look at the girl. look at HIM! i love it love it. (:

2006-10-21T14:58:00.000+08:00

who wont fall in love ?

2006-10-21T14:56:00.000+08:00

Love (:

2006-10-21T14:55:00.000+08:00

((((:

2006-10-21T14:37:00.000+08:00

okay THIS is why im so in love with him. understandable right!?

2006-10-21T14:07:00.000+08:00

hello everyone! (:
the week just flew by as usual, and i still am not feeling the stress. there's something wrong with me, really. really really wrong.

anyway. i came online to say that, stairway to heaven is the most tragic show i've ever watched and i am in love with chengjun ge. (: okay,i sound retarded because now everyone is into princess hours and here i am talking about stairway. but seriously. that guy is utter and complete LOVE. (((: haha. yeah i want to marry him! actually i want to marry his character because he's so sweet and caring and powerful and hot and everything nice.

so you see, clarissa has a new love. dont worry elliott, you're not forgotten. (:
well i guess its easier for me to marry elliott than chengjunge because for one, we speak the same language. but you see. at least chengjunge and me are ont he same CONTINENT! haha. (((((:

im so smitten right now. and that show is utter love okay! likelike, its so sad and tragic and it made me cry. this is like one of the few shows that had made me cry. haha. tears were not even dripping out, they were POURING OUT of my eye sockets. especially the part where the bro killed himself. like, talk about SAD! haha.

okay. what else what else? well nothing much lah! haha. okayy okayy. stairway rocks bye.

2006-10-16T17:33:00.000+08:00

:D
Everybody knows
That I was such a fool
To ever let go of you
But baby I was wrong
And yeah I know I said
We'd be better off alone
It was time that we moved on
I know I broke your heart
I didn't mean to break your heart
But baby, here I am

Banging on your front door
My pride's spilled on the floor
My hands and knees are bruised
And I'm crawling back to you
Begging for a second chance
Are you gonna let me in?
I was running from the truth
And now I'm crawling back to you

I know you're in there
You can make me wait
But I'm not going away
It's the least that I can do
Just to tell you face to face
I was lying to myself (lying to myself)
Now I'm dying in this hell (dying in this hell)

Girl, I know you're mad
I can't blame you for being mad
But baby, here I am

Banging on your front door
My pride's spilled on the floor
My hands and knees are bruised
And now I'm crawling back to you
Begging for a second chance
Are you gonna let me in? (let me in)
I was running from the truth
And now I'm crawling back to you

If you could see these tears I'm crying
Touch these hands that can't stop shaking
Hear my heart that's barely beating
You would see a different man
But baby, here I am

Banging on your front door
My pride's spilled on the floor
My hands and knees are bruised
And I'm crawling back to you
Begging for a second chance
Are you gonna let me in? (let me in)
I was running from the truth
And now I'm crawling back to you
Banging on your front door
My pride's spilled on the floor
I was running from the truth
And now I'm crawling back to you (yeah)
Now I'm crawling back to you (crawling back to you)
Crawling back to you (crawling back to you)

okay, officially my 9470934162701th favourite song.
WHAT AM I DOING ONLINE??

wake up, clarissa, WAKE UP!!!!!!

2006-10-14T18:38:00.000+08:00

hey yous! (: so. yesterday was the last day of school )))): to be honest, i didnt feel sad much when i was in school it just didnt feel like the last day of school. yet. so i was like, whatever. then towards bio which was the last period i suddenly realised that it was all going to end. everything. like, im never gonna be called classmates with these people anymore after this. i still havent taken photos with all of them. but never mind, i will when we come back for Os or something. i guess i didnt actually think that we'd really not see each other/talk anymore after this. but then i realised, this might just be the case, for some people. ):

and i really dont want it to happen man. can you imagine? its so terrifying. and the future is so bleak for me. ): hahah. my stupid l1r5 is like, 21. !!!!! twenty ONE ONE ONE ONE! and you know what? if they just gave me one more mark for emath/combined humans i'd have gotten TWENTY on the dot. but NO. gosh. its just one freaking mark lah. i feel so... ARGHHHH! and because of that im gonna be like, jc-ineligible. what the hell. if you were me i tell you you sure scream one lah. hahah. SHIT MAN. WHY must they do this to me.

anyway, even though through the year ive been desperate to get out of tkgs, but now, i know im gonna miss it so much. tkgs has been practically my second home these 4years, the friends/memories it brought me, i'll never forget. :D i just hope nothing much will change after we leave. i hope friendships will stay strong, and memories wont fade. wishful thinking? i dont know. but all i want is not to see someone i've gotten so close to in tkgs after a few years and be unable to talk like we used to, to laugh at the dumbest things, and to do crazy things together, because everything will be awkward and yucky. the thought of that makes me want to cry, positively. )):

im gonna miss tkgs/4e9 so so so so much. )))):

2006-10-11T17:03:00.000+08:00

hey you. (: its only two days till the last day of school and before we all know it, Os will be at our doorstep, zooming passt. its either we make it or we break it. wow, talk about stress. (: HAHA.

okay, okay. im gonna like, hit the books now. (yeah right)

2006-10-09T22:34:00.000+08:00

hey. whats up with my life? im trying to find a PERFECT clutch wallet (: yup. thats pretty much it. other than the ever so confusing "what shall i do with my life after Os" problem. !!!!!! i actually lost sleep brooding over it yesterday. i need God to help me man, give me a sign and i'll follow obediently.

2006-10-08T20:46:00.000+08:00

okay im here. haha. (: i was too lazy to search for a template so i just used one i posted on blogskins. i absolutely LOVE this one, but it doesnt seem to be getting much publicity. (: CHECK OUT MY SKINS PEOPLE! haha. click the link in the credits section. (: i feel thrilled that people use my skins. (: so if you like any of them feel free to use them okay? dont be shy. haha.

okay im gonna go bathe now. seeya

2006-10-08T20:02:00.000+08:00

testing, as usual. (: